Note to self:
Stop trying to earn God’s love.
You have it already. Love beyond your wildest dreams.
You should not keep God’s laws and seek to do good because you are begging for His love, or trying to win an A+ in the game of life.
Keeping His laws and seeking to do good is simply responding to His love. It’s how you love Him back. It’s part of your relationship.
Yes, doing those things are to your benefit, and no, you don’t get to stop just because you don’t feel loving some days. But striving to please God in order to deserve His love is silly. You’ll never deserve love so amazing. So instead rejoice in the miracle that that love is yours already.